~audrea

this really sucks.

i am losing inspiration.

im starting to laze over my deviantart.

im... kind of depressed.

oh well.

good luck to me.

................................

need.

fuel.

to.

light.

my.

fire.

~audrea~

okay, so im back. hhhmmm... it's kind of hypocritical that i said i was back last time but didnt really.... well, appear. god, it's been a long time. i think i even forgot how to put emoticons. *toinks!* lol. anyway.. so im here. now. yeah, again. for real. and guess what??? im in New Jersey!! lol. moving on. my point is.... well...

thanks a lot. oh guys i love you all!!! and i miss my ate ayu cause she doesnt log in to y!m anymore. i dont know why. does anybody know what has happened to her and how she is doing now?

so... those who watch me, thanks for not leaving even though it had been almost a year since i last posted some work here. and... thanks also to those who put my deviations in their faves list. so really, thanks. oh yeah, i got surprised too that i had 500 something page views. haha, that was really funny. well, i mean odd cause.. i dont log in for 10 decades and suddenly i see that. well, i dont know. maybe im just too dense. haha. but thanks still anyways.

okay so.. i got inspired. lol. so now, im gonna try and focus my attention here. lol. since it's summer and... i dont want some more tan cause im damn brown. lol. i guess im gonna update my deviations. lol. though i dont know if they'll still be good. lol.

hey. ive a problem. how do you put emoticons again???? god, im so stupid. lol. haha. yeah, laugh. it's perfectly fine. anyways..

they cut our net connection but.. i think they're gonna put another one. a different network. but i dont know how long that will take. although i can always go to my uncle's house at night to use their net. *like what im doing right now* lol. so...

i love you guys a lot!!! and i missed you. *hhhuuuggg!!!*

~Light my Fire
AuDreA~

aaaaaaaawwwwww!!!!!!!!!!! god, i missed you! yes! you! all of you!
well.... the reason im not activ anymore is this... my sistah, ayu bought me a subscription here in devArt. *thankie!* it's now expired, (that's fine okay) i asked my mom to buy me a subscription instead and she said yes. (that was for a whole year) my mom has a card and i dont so........ she gave me the things i needed so i could fill the form. (i didn't want her to know my password so i was the one who filed it) but then the transaction failed because the billing address was too far from my location..... *ugh* well, my mom's in New Jersey what'd they expect? oh well... it was kinda hard for me to manage my devArt because...... i became so used with the features of a subscriber. that's all......

oh but, dont worry..... (not that you are going to worry...) im moving.. er, migrating there this October. aaaaaahhhhh....... im late for school.... for my school....... anxiety is here, well yeah, a little. oh no....... i think im gonna be culture shocked... again. i dont know, im not used to whatever customs people have there. *it's not a very nice feeling* can someone help me??? sure, i can speak english. (although sometimes i dunno if i have the right grammaar) but still....... ima miss my language. *sniff* and my friends........ really, im so clueless about everything.... (cause i dont think the movies say much)

but other than that, im happy. there's gonna be a L'arc convention here in the Phil on September 16! yay! even though it's just a convention, im still happy. who knows, Hyde might get famous here and start making tours or stuff like that. i just learned of it today and it's making my really really BIG!

and yay! LiAiL said he misses me!!! (wwweeeeeeee!!!!!! aaaawww, that's sweet........) i only read it today...... it made me update my journal. hihi. see, all i need is a little motivation. haha. does anybody read my journals? i cant remember...... haha but anyways, i miss you all!!! *especially ate ayu, i dont encounter her enymore in messenger.*

well, that's all for now. (i hope someone reads this or else my typing just got wasted....) but even if no one does, i still love you. haha, im odd today. hihi. mwah! love, bearhugs and kisses!


~Light my Fire~
AuDreA

Mood: gleaming
Listening to: Ometto Samba - Cap to Bin (Tenipuri)
Reading: Sophie
Watching: Saiyuki Requiem

hi! im back!!! im sooo back! but i'll be leaving again. but im back! oh well...

im so sorry for breaking my promise of leaving comments to everyone's deviations. really, im so sorry. its just that there's so many of you who updated a lot and there's too many that i cant possibly leave a mark on everything. im really sorry, really really. but you know i did try to look at it, even though there's too many. im sorry okay?

i'll be updating, but not now.... im feeling lazy at the moment. *teehee* ive had a nice vacation even though it clashed with a beauty pageant. but you know, it was fun. i had to practice everyday at 2:00 to 4 and then go night swimming at my crush's house. (they were the "hermana mayor" -sponsor) it was worth it, the experience and close friendship ive developed with the other candidates. winning was nice but the greatest part of it was the bonding we shared. it was a little hard because you had to smile for more than an hour and always during the pageant. you always had to be in a proper posture and my heels were 3 inches and a half!!! it was a miracle i didn't fall or stumble... because it was raining! it was open and didn't have a roof so the stage was slippery. and oh, mind you, the stage was a bit unbalanced... i dunno why... but the fire works display were nice.

well, gotta end it here. im sorry again. mwah! *wave* you know, i did miss devArt and all of you. *smile* well, gotta go now! ü bye bye, take care...


~Light my Fire,
AuDreA~

10 of April 06, Monday. still stuck in my province, Bulacan. i miss ya'll!!! and yeah, i miss my pc at home. im in an internet caf right now. the very reason im here is that we celebrate Holy Week here oh but dont get me wrong, its absolutely fine here, although i just miss doing certain things at home...
my birthday always clashes with Holy Week that's why i cant celebrate it properly. its because we do things that are uncommon to most people. (we have to lead a procession, we do 'pabasa' etc.) that's why its really busy during this week... oh and, ima take pictures and submit them when i get back. Just to see if im good at shots

anyway... i know, i know, im slow on updating. im sorry okay. havent got a scanner so... (and i cant find one) i promise to update when i get back Manila. i also promise to make up for all ive missed, its just that ive been too busy. (actually, im not that busy but since my pc's left home... and internet cafe's are far from our residence) *teehee* i really really promise to make comments on all of your deviations, forgive me if not on your journal.

moving on, im not really leaving... just off for a few days. ima miss all of you, especially those that i often leave comments with. (hey, you know who you are, here's one big hug!!! ) mwah, i'll be back bye!


~Light my Fire
AuDreA~